The fire started in Soberanes
canyon, has spread now over
45,000 acres; someone left
a campfire “unattended” so 50+
houses burned down, one guy
dead. And in a year, it’ll be
a good season for morels.
Reading a translation of Dogen
who tends to repeat himself.
I seem to be shifting from writing
to painting. Very little focus
these days, the brain too full
to submit to any sort of rigor
and the details of myriad
memories are in there somewhere
but now some are harder to get;
for example, I was going to
stop writing poems online,
was going to write only by
hand in notebooks. Instead
I’m drawing diagrams for
paintings, and now writing
a kind of poem here because
it’s a curative. Medicinal. I’m
my own arbolaryo, have to
shake out the words over this
Acrylics on canvas, 20×20 inches.
Water soluble oils over acrylic, on canvas. 20 x 16.” Work in progress, or maybe just done. Very tempted to title this “The Flowery Land” after the 1864 mutiny of a British ship by a variety of crew members including Manilla men, of whom seven were later executed in London. Catching a few minutes painting before heading to the cafe to do some freelance editing…
I used to live in “the country” in Elkhorn, CA. I was just thinking it would be fun to put a chapbook together on “country living,” which I say with full irony. Here’s a poem I wrote a couple years ago:
It’s damned gorgeous today. Warm as spring,
dry as sandstone. In mid-winter. The goat
is dead. To the laundromat I must go. Clearly
clover will not green this field. That’s
California winter: green. Was, anyway.
G. has raked leaves over her infectious
bloodstains. (Where once the blewits grew,
orange-juicy edible fungus).
The clothes take for fucking ever
to dry. In the meantime, reading
a story about books. Then another
story about books and cats.
Unbearable lightness of dog
and cat love. Then have a coffee.
And M. is sick with a cold. Chloro-
phyll will not rise; ground props up
weed skeletons and rocks, towhees
peck for seeds dropped from
the feeder. Sun goes down garishly
the way we like it. Flashing
Then it’s dark again, and the oaks
(the cakes) throw shadows, make a black
tunnel under which I skittle down
the road to snatch the mail. Yo,
bats, owls, goats: where are yooo. What
do you call home now. Give me
a little scare.
This is a continuation of a painting I started a couple years ago; It was originally nude. I have this impulse to build up paint and then scrape and hack at it so that the surface reveals previous gestures and ridges. I keep scraping it and adding paint, and it just keeps getting more and more surreal. Oil over acrylic on wood panel w/collage.
Monterey Bay Aquarium. Eco-tourism. Plein air painting. Consumption. Reading Stephanie Rutherford’s “Governing the Wild: Ecotours of Power,” among other things.
Sometimes I catch myself thinking “I really hate en plein air painting” (and I seem to live in the plein air capital of the U.S.). Seems silly or mean to think negatively about something so pretty & pleasing to the eye, so innocent. I feel like it had something to say in 1850. But now it just seems irrelevant, and yet Monterey art galleries keep plugging it, and plugging it for the eco-tourists. It’s redundant, like a plague word. One can go on and on about the beauties of nature, and completely miss the destructive forces pulling the rug (grass?) out from under you. Really, Monterey: is that all you’ve got?
OK, I’m back. Nothing like a change in your job situation to get you going in a new direction. So I spruced up this space a little, and will now use it mostly to keep me in line on my writing & art projects.
I’m still painting, still writing poems. But because writing online has prevented me from sending my work to some journals and publishers, most of my poetry writing will now be done offline. I’m working on a documentary poetry manuscript at the moment — and a couple other things.
Last time I wrote, I was living w/my partner in an apartment. Since then we have moved to downtown, “Old Town” — a much nicer area close to restaurants, the farmers’ market, stores. Good area for walking.
I recently learned that the property we’re living in was once occupied by an rather unconventional activist/poet priest; his mother lived in our cottage, and the priest lived in the larger house next door. No wonder there’s an iron cross on top of the wooden fence dividing the two properties. There are also beautiful roses and other flowers planted all around the cottage. I shot this eerie photograph of the cross in moonlight a few weeks ago: